Self-Portrait

Sunday

Last night I possessed myself.

I didn't mean to.

I didn't mean to ruin the special occasion. I didn't want to have a mental breakdown in the restaurant and cause a huge scene. I didn't mean to get hysterical and cry and scream and collapse and black out and lose consciousness and have a panic attack. I didn't want to have to be given a sedative to calm down just so I could remember how to function and be human again.
What the fuck is wrong with me?

2 comments:

  1. In answer to your question.. probably nothing at all!
    I feel what some call 'panic attacks' and if I let those feelings or thoughts get the better of 'me' I can sometimes get pains in my chest. My doctor tried to prescribe me anti-depressants for something I don't quite understand just yet, and he didn't seem to know either. I believe that everyone gets those bouts of anxiety and others may dwell on the moment.
    Try not to let the doctors turn you into a 'condition' ;-)

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  2. *bear hug*

    Nothing, dear, nothing. I agree with Drude. Love you! *kiss*

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